I’m meant to be packing right now. I head off to the other side of the world in 6 days.
I’m off to tick things off my bucket list, experience new things, adventure a lot and take some good care of myself. It’s about time. Every 6 months I take a good holiday to a place that makes me happy and makes my heart full.
“You can’t pour from an empty cup. Take care of yourself first.”
It’s a time for me to re-think what I want, when I want it and how I’ll get it. I’m ready to plan out my next moves and my next waves.
And I think it’s so important you do this too.
It took me a long time to realise that when my feelings begin to consume me, there’s no-one that can fix that but me. I followed one too many sad quote Instagram pages and spent too much time on my Pinterest in hope that it would heal hurt. It took me a long time to realise that even the friends who predict your word before you say it can’t fix the empty feeling inside of you.
I spent too long relying on people and superficial things to make me happy. I put trust in people who quickly showed why I shouldn’t have. I avoided cutting things out of my life that made me feel like what I did wasn’t enough. I’ve forgotten how much I appreciate the small things. The sound of rain, the warmth of hugs and the people who tell you to drive safe before they leave you. The people who make you feel like a step in the right direction is still a step, no matter how shaky and uncertain. I held myself back too many times and I’m sick of it.
All it does is hinder my growth, stop me from moving mountains and pulls madness out of my soul.
I know I can do it, I know I’ve got it in me to move mountains and fill oceans. I’ll learn to appreciate the little things again and I’ll spend time creating goals for myself, ones that 8 year old me would be proud of.
“Because you were made to be this brave little human who does not back down to the things in life that try to tidal wave over you and force you to be small.”
The most important lesson I will learn this year is that it’s totally OK to do this. It’s fine for me to shut myself off periodically to fix myself. I don’t owe anyone anything, I am my longest commitment and my biggest priority. My mental health is the single most important thing, and no matter how small the hole, it needs to be filled with positive, genuine things. I live in this world and my sole priority before I leave is to create for myself, a life that I will love.
Shit happens, and it comes with no warning. Life doesn’t consider you before it hits. But it’s up to you to fill your cup with the things that give you purpose & set your soul on fire.
Wholeheartedly love yourself, and your world will love you back.
NZ Mental Health Awareness Week is the 9th-15th October. Hug your babes a lil tighter.